Strong words you might agree, after the journal i posted a little while ago lets bring that up to speed. The relative i mentioned was my Aunt i wont name her here as i'm not really sure of putting her name next to what i do here. Anyway six weeks after diagnosis my Aunt passed , i carried the coffin and held a cord at the funeral.I don't point the finger at any of the NHS or doctors as the cancer she had would have been very hard to stop as there was little to no symptoms of it till the end.Rather than go off in rage filled rant about stuff ( i do like a rant now and again ) i'm gonna try and be positive as wallowing in unhappiness solves nothing. So let's get some pics rendered, lose weight (lolwut??!) and see if i can find a girlfriend ( yes even i'm rofling at that one) . I'd also like to thank everyone for their comments of the last journal , very much appreciated.